It’s been two weeks of training already, still easy, getting
into the routine again. I have stopped
few times while running 45 minutes, I have complained a little bit, I have
asked myself why I’m doing this and I started to feel that empty feeling again
in my chest. All my workouts are by
myself, me, my music, and my mind. It
has been me against the hot weather, against the windy days, against the clock.
Since my last International Distance triathlon in March I
have to confess that I lost some of the triathlon passion, mostly the
competition, the fear of hard courses, very hot races. I used to have more confidence, I used not to
give up while running, I used to push beyond my limits but something happened
to me.
So after a few months I setup the challenge of the Half
Ironman not knowing how to tackle it. I
had the house cleaning and moving so I decided to stop any training, gather
myself, think and that’s when Ryan Knapp reached out to me again and asked if I was ready,
my answer was YES. But the slow start, short
trainings, hot days still had me thinking again, asking myself why I’m doing
this. I was thinking to do a Half
Marathon in December, Ragnar Relay in February and maybe a sprint triathlon in
between. I stopped myself and decided to
clear the path to Haines City, all the races are on hold, no half marathon,
Ragnar will depend of how I feel and a Sprint distance as well. I want to have
solid training in the next 26 weeks left, I want to focus in each training,
practice nutrition and feel prepare when April 12th arrives.
While chatting about nutrition and indoor trainer with
lovely coach, mother and triathlete Christina she asked me the question “How
bad you want this?” How bad do I want this? How bad do I want this? I repeated myself that when went for 45
minutes run and every time I wanted to walk I repeated myself the question and
the answer came to me easy and spontaneously…I WANT THIS! Yes!!!
When I started the triathlon journey 4
years ago I said that by 2015 I wanted to do my first 70.3 and I’m on my way to
accomplish this, but in 26 weeks I have to put all the effort, training and
focus.
That question and my answer was like a brand new spark that
light my fire again, the emptiness in my chest is no longer there, and the will
power came back again with a purpose.
I WANT THIS! IM WORKIN ON IT! And I WILL FINISH!
Would you capture it or just let it slip?” – Lose Yourself by Eminem
Cheers!